Movies, Apologies, Headaches and Polls...oh my

Hello friends and family,

I have been woefully neglectful. And for that, I am sorry.  I fear that I may have lost some of you.  Do my reassurances that I will be better mean anything to you anymore?

I thought not.

Yesterday I was in an odd state and while working on my paper, my friend started singing Pretty Woman and I decided to watch Pretty Woman (9 pm).  I had never seen it and it was awesome.  Then, I decided to watch Runaway Bride (10:30).  Then I watched Someone Like You (12 ish) and I was not completely satisfied so I started to watch When Harry Met Sally (2:30) and that took a while to load so I started watching Maid In Manhattan (3:45).  So.... I didn't fall asleep until 6:11 am.

Yeah....I woke up at 1:45 pm.

So I thought I would tell you that in the hopes that you find it somewhat amusing.  More and more I am finding that my inability to wrap up my experiences in the Middle East prevent me from moving on and writing with my usual consistency.

Because trust me, it is not for want of writing topics that I am not writing.  Everyday I formulate titles and topics and specific phrases, but I shy away from writing all together because I feel horrible. It is as if I were your slave... Instead of being my own master.

Anyway... I need to continue working on my paper, it is due this friday... and while I am confident that I will finish it, I am not 100% confident I will finish it on time, despite the fact that I have been writing bit by bit.

Okay, its always difficult in the last weeks of school  This week would be considered Dead Week and next week finals.  And then...I am done! Yay! I get to go home!

I have a really bad headache on the right side of my brain. I think its from watching these movies mostly in the dark.  If something happens to me, now you know why.  My eyes may explode.  The computer gave off too much of something.

I liked when Harry Met Sally the best.  I mean Pretty Woman was pretty awesome and I love JLo, but I think When Harry Met Sally is just more believable, and real people status.  I mean real people can cultivate a friendship over a long period of time and find that they are meant for each other. I am finding this instant connection and marriage proposals after a week not real. I think i have finally found the reason I have not had a successful relationship.

Movies like this perpetuate this idea that you can make a connection with a handsome and mostly morally straight guy within a day, or an enchanted night.  I have fantasized the idea of a knight in shining armor my entire life, and romantic comedies that create that instant attraction as a foundation for love have made me believe that finding that special guy will be easy, that it will be instant and that I will be able to drop everything and be happy with him.

But the reality of the situation is much more grave.  The instant attraction will most likely lead to false moments of happiness.  I have been on the receiving end of those false moments of happiness a myriad of times.  This mini tirade doesn't signify that I have given up my hopeless romantic sensibilities. By no means. This is why I read. (I finished The Native Star by the way and its awesome and I can't believe there is a sequel that comes out in April...I can't wait that long!) In reading at least, there are nuances that are never found in the movies and there is actual relationship building.  In the movies, nowadays relationship building is one night of passion. "So what?" you might be saying, "Did I really just waste my time reading this?" Yes you did just waste your time if you are not a friend or family member or an internet stranger who happens to like to read what I have to say.  Anyway, what I am trying to say is that i would appreciate finding movies in which there is actual relationship building.  Something just as cute and funny as a romcom but that provides ME some friggin HOPE that I, as a NORMAL person, will be able to find some one in due time.  I'm going to be thirty-five and never married, just watch.

Okay there ends my analysis of my personal reasons I still watch RomComs (for I will because sometimes I just need those moments of instant love to know that there is still love in the world.

Answer my poll please!

I still have a headache.

Okay, people.  I need to work.

Peace.